The disease has caused differences between me and my loved ones, though they try their best to be considerate and kind. I blame my disease too, to feel a sense of relief…
He blames all these habits on my disease. The disease urges me to binge shop those expensive silk shirts. The disease causes me to drink that extra glass of whisky that I now can’t afford. It is a side effect of the disease which causes me to gamble and throw away my inheritance. My shrink says that I have problems with impulse control and asks me not to regret it as it is not my fault. Anorexia nervosa turned me into a shrunken shadow of my former self. Drug habit, a side effect of the disease adversely affecting my body. Trichotillomania causes hair to thin, making me look way older than I am. Fine lines etched on my face due to anxiety. People may laugh at my narcissistic regret, but it is a regret too. But what can I do when the body obeys but my mind resists? A bracelet disappears from someone’s cupboard on other unlucky days. So, off goes a pencil stand from someone’s office desk one day.
#REMINISCE EXTRA HAT PIN CONTEST FULL#
The medications stop for a while and so does the stealing, then it comes back in full force, more compulsive then before, till I can take it no more. Hope turns into reality for a while, a temporary break from the temptation to derail. Hope for the day when my special table would not have a single bauble which is new. I then hope for the day when the course of medicines would end. I take them, sometimes, suffering from the side effects – weight gain, mood swings, bowel troubles, to name a few. They give me SSRI – Selective Serotonin Receptor Uptake Inhibitors to curb my ways. My shrink says that I steal because my mother died when I was young, my psychologist disagrees by saying that my childhood poverty causes me to hoard. Observing them, while they search frantically for the stolen object, pity in my mind at their sorry plight. I regret stealing them, maybe not at the time I commit the act, but later as I recall the incidents and think about the people I have fooled and the things I have taken from them. The things I steal are small but essential – a pen holder sometimes, an ornate spoon at other times, a small table clock, a snooker ball and on occasion if the mood is right, a bottle of expensive perfume. I never rationalize the why part of it, they are just bad without a cause. “Them ” - being the people who are bad and deserve to be stolen from. The sweepstakes has ended and finding the horseshoe is now just for fun! Check the latest issue to see where the horseshoe has been hiding.I have regretted many things in my life, the primary being of course, my habit of stealing inconspicuous things.ĭeriving sadistic pleasure by fooling them, stealing the things they cherish but take for granted. Thanks for your interest in Farm & Ranch Living’s Hidden Horseshoe sweepstakes. Williamsburg, West Virginia Runner-up pup Misty, appearing in the August/September 2022 issue. Pilot Rock, Oregon Runner-up pup Huck, appearing in the August/September 2022 issue. Valley Center, California Farmer’s Best Friend winner Obi-Wan, appearing in the June/July 2022 issue. Harry Bulthouse (Depression-era homebuilt DoodleBug tractor)Ĭongratulations to our winners! Look for their stories in upcoming issues of Farm & Ranch Living. Congratulations to our winners! Look for their stories in the October/November issue of Farm & Ranch Living.
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